Psalm 51 has always been a special passage to me. The words in it have resonated with my heart since 1985 when my sister showed it to me:
“Against Thee and Thee only have I sinned and done what is evil in Thy sight …”
It was a very dark time of my life, and these words hit me square in the face, like a slap.
The psalmist continues, “Create in me a clean heart oh God and renew a right spirit in me…”
I held on to this Scripture for a very long time. Every time I thought about it, I could feel the very presence of God. But there was a very important phrase in this Psalm that completely escaped my notice.
The other day my youngest daughter was reading this passage aloud from my new bible app off my iphone. As she read, I nearly ran off the road (I was driving us to Dallas for a day of Christmas shopping…and ironically enough, this was one of the rare instances when I was not iphoning while driving). I made her stop and read this part again:
“ Make my heart to hear joy and gladness.”
I don’t recall ever “hearing” that part before.
I struggle with depression this time of year. Winter is…ugh. I’m definitely a beach person, not a snowy mountain person. The gloomy days, the cold and wet weather, the halt after the Christmas rush. All these things converge this time of year, and it seems to suck the joy right out of life.
And so stumbling across this verse was like a flipping a light on, or perhaps receiving another slap in the face! Make me to HEAR Joy and Gladness. God can MAKE me HEAR it! I thought I had to experience it. I thought I had to make sure I was thinking positively and hearing the joy. But it’s His doing! I just need to listen!
So God…in these days when all the news is dismal, when tough things happen with my family, when I worry about the economy and how it will affect my business and the employees I love, when I don’t want to get out of bed….I will listen…
Make me to HEAR Joy and Gladness.